Curtain Closing
I have literally hundreds of things that I’ve written for this blog over the past few years that I never posted, and I had been planning to do a massive amount of posting in these my final days. But I decided against it for a few reasons. First, my health situation is escalating to a conclusion faster than I had anticipated, and I don’t have time to review, edit and polish these writings even to the low standards of a blog post, and I don’t want my final statements to be sloppy or incoherent or misleading. But beyond this, I realized that my desperate desire to continue publishing represented my last resistance to accepting the circumstances of my life as they are. I won’t lie to you—this is a horrible ending and I feel I deserve better. I feel like I’ve spent the last ten years watching horrible people get rewarded for horrible things they’ve done while I’ve been relentlessly punished for things I did NOT do. I thought this would be temporary, that at some poi...